I'm finding my musical taste expanding more often than I know what to do with.....mostly because I find myself in the music store more often(because there is a girl I'm in to) and spending more money. I'm still trying to find myself......trying to figure out my purpose....working on finding the initiative.....and writing more and more......I'm working on trying to attain the goals in my life I've set and at the same time I just found out that another one of my friends plans on taking a journey half way across the country to pursue her dreams....which is fine, yet at the same time opens up then emptiness some more. I realize noone actually reads these.....mostly because noone on this site could care any less about what some schmo half ass writer in Alaska is doing. But at least for me it is a release that I so DESPERATELY need right now. This is an outlet that won't talk back to me but at the same time if there is someone out there who does pay any attention then they might have a little more insight as to what the hell is wrong with me. I'm not all smiles and happiness by any stretch of the imagination.....I also don't think I ever will be. but at least I'll have a place to put all my thoughts, since I can't really keep a journal with pen and paper anyway, I hardly keep this one. I've put all this negative stuff out.....and well it's all I can really think of. I bought BLENDER magazine today and they had a special top 500 songs set......and half of the songs they chose(which are from the 80's to present)really freakin blow. The method behind picking these songs must have just been point and click and see what happens....because I thought of 35 songs that belonged on that list that weren't there within 2 minutes of completing the list.......my new list of songs that belong that aren't there has reached about 150. anyway yeah so I'm done for tonight....peace.